September 9, 2025

It’s been almost two months since I quit my routine job as a Creative Lead.
What have I done since then? I slept, like a bear in a cave, waiting for winter to pass me by.
I didn’t move. I was stuck in bed. It swallowed me; I felt glued to it.

In those moments, I felt free. At the same time, I felt guilty. Why?
I felt free because, for the first time in 15 years of my career, I truly slept. I never stopped. Even during my maternity leave, I wasn’t resting, I was changing diapers.

But at the same time, I felt like I was wasting time, like I was being left behind. The world was moving on, trends kept shifting, habits kept evolving.

Until I realized, the bear’s stomach started to growl. I was hungry. Literally. I felt like I needed to do something. Not a BIG achievement like winning Cannes (though that’s still GREAT, of course). What I needed were small steps, feeding my ego, achieving KPIs not for a company, but for myself. I needed to cleanse my mind, have a healthy body, and release some tension.

Then the bear looked in the mirror (feels cliché, but true) and asked herself: Is this really the life you wanted? Hiding in a cave? Ashamed to meet the sun? Too lazy to ground yourself? Too embarrassed to even look in the mirror? Where’s the person who wanted to be the “camping mama,” the “motivational guru,” the “storyteller”? I don’t see her. I’ve been too busy hiding in my issues.

OK, fayne, if it feels too hard to grab the camera, edit, and post as the camping mama, then let’s just start with a small step. I can’t stay stuck in bed forever. I need to do something, before I can see the big picture clearly, I need to focus on myself first.

That’s why today I’m proud to announce two things in my life: this is the 37th day of my dietary journey, and I’ve already lost 8 kilos. Still a long way to go. What I’ve achieved is not only a leaner body, but also the ability to let go of a toxic mindset that had stuck to me, anxiety, fear of incapability, rage, and grudges.

You might have noticed that several of my IG Stories show my dietary menus. YES, I wanted to share with you that my journey is still accompanied by the delicious meals I make. And from now on, I’ll also share the recipes if you want to follow along! (Cheat code: just replace the high-calorie ingredients.)

I still have more kilos to shed, but each step brings me closer to feeling healthier, wealthier, and happier.

The second thing I’m grateful for is having MakinMakin, the tiny little company my friends and I built together (Vincent, Pia, Megan, Morgan, Maul, Marga, and everyone else). Because of MakinMakin, I still have a reason to open my laptop every morning, to check emails, WhatsApp, and even receive my monthly payslip.

It might feel like a small achievement today, but dreams are FREE, right? So why not make it BIG someday? I will!

As a fire sign, I let my flame dim, not to turn into ashes, but just to rest for a while. Maybe I burned too hot before and scorched things around me, but now I want to be the kind of fire that warms others.

Wait until the bear starts to GROWL!